Never good enough...

Did you know that most teenage roles 15-19 are played by aged 19+ actors?

Thats why they all look gorgous.

I have been thinking about what to get you for you birthday and i started thinking about how you helped me through a lot of stuff i’ve had to deal with like, family troubles, boyfriend drama and friend problems. You have alway’s been there and helped me deal with it even though you have had to put up with a lot of crap. I know this may be really soppy and cheesy but, i just wanted to tell you that:

your an amazing friend who’s helped me through so much,

you ARE pretty and you ARE clever,

you SHOULDN’T let people get you down

and most of all Thankyou.

When you look in the mirror in the moring and like what you see.

Then someone calls you ugly so later when you look in the mirror i hate what i see.

My life everyday.

Sometimes i wonder why i bother. People say i’m brilliant, then i’m not good enough. People fall out with me, then were friends again. People say i’m pretty, then i’m ugly.People say i’m skinny, then i’m fat. People say. People say that. People say that they hate me, then they love me. People say i’m lying, when i tell the truth. People say i’m stupid, when i help someone else. People say i’m not worth anything. People say i’m wierd. People say i’m strange. But, you know what?

I CARE WHAT PEOPLE SAY!!!

Just not those people.

I care about the people who stick with me through thick and thin.

The people i couldn’t live without.

Who pick me up when i fall.

Who put up with my annoyingness.

People inmportant to me.

waiting for the train,

to come crawling in,

sneaking up on me,

i won’t relise till it’s here,

i can’t see it coming,

when i give up searching,

thats when it will come,

standing alone at the station,

waiting for that one,

the pesky train,

i hope it’s gets here soon,

i don’t want to wait alone,

all my hope,

and a dream,

so many questions,

when will it come?

what will it hold?

when i wait for my train

i’m waiting for love.